Actually ,I am not going to update my blog today.It really seems it is not a blog but rather a diary.Whenever i have something to say i will write down here.
I am happy there is someone likes me so much.A few days ago , we are just strangers.I didn't know him,of course he didn't know me.Our first meet began with a stupid conversation.But however stupid the conversation is ,we still met.After a few words he said he was bored and wanted to try something new.Oh...he wanted to voice with me.Hehe...only if he could understand me ,i didn't mind chatting with him on voice.He is really a kind and nice man.And it's been about 26 days since we first me.I do really like him ,and want him to be happy everyday.Today he asked me how long would our relationship last?Long or short?I answered him it would be a short relationship.It didn't mean i wanted a short relationship cause the distance is big problem ...but i did really hurt him.We both know that ,however, i am always the one to reveal the truth.Disappointed ,upset,despressed...it's complicated.He is always emotional now,so am i .Stupid Patrick hurt his knee a few days ago,cause he ran too hard.I didn't know a lot about his knee, and i supposed it was not serious but it is getting worst now.How can he treat himself like this?I worry about him much,cause he doesn't take care of himself .He is so stupid,since he always stays up for me.Doesn't he know it's bad for eyes?
I am sure he knows but he still wants to stay up for me.He needs get up at 6am and he sacrifice his sleeptime to talk to me.He likes to hear my voice ,talk to me ,and the way i act.I would love to do the things he wants me to satisfy him.I don't know if i am too stupid ,so he still thinks i don't love him as much as he loves me.Tonight he went to bed so late,it's about 3am.Then he told me he couldn't fall asleep ,when he looked at my picture his eyes got watery.I was very upset and moved when i got a email like this from him .Tomorrow ,go to bed earlier ok?Because my eyes are watery too.You told me you wouldn't make me cry anymore,well...i have to tell you...you break your promise again!
OK....i need to have my dinner now...Love you ...
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I was really happy when I read your diary, thank you for expressing the way you feel for me, I was too stupid and blind to see you really do love me.. You would do stuff I say even though you weren't really comfortable with it.. I'm sorry for doubting you.. Love. Yes our love us complicated.. I really hope we can make it last long... I want my xiao mi! Hehe. And sorry for making you cry but I want to tell you how I feel and what I'm going thru, so you know my love for you is real... I'm sorry for making you cry but that promise is hard to keep.. Even I cry.. I'm sorry.. I love you a lot.. Swan. I hope one day we actually meet so I can feel your heartbeat. And you can feel mines.. When we hug... Love you. Talk to you later. Nuhrul sarahg hae yo!
Most of time i am not able to tell you my feeling when we are talking,cause i am not good at expressing myself,and i told you my feeling in this way.
And then xiao mi is not yours ,it would be mine.It depends on me if you want xiao mi to be your daughter.So you should treat me better...
Pleas dont make me cry again ,if you have to ,how about after i'm healing?
Ok I'll make you cry after you fully healed heheh.. Can you try and tell me on voice how you feel about me sometimes ok? I like it when you express your feelings to me. K I'm at work still.. Talk to you later love..
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